Wednesday, November 26, 2008
1.5 months after my last post, i shall still abide by my thoughts and perspectives =)
Maybe my determination to keep these thoughts and perspectives mean that I'm a changed person eh? haha! Somehow i became slightly more effective at persuading myself to become less aggressive and judgemental. I wonder how much more effective though? Mebbe towards some only... lol
it's me again at [9:10 PM]
Sunday, October 12, 2008
i've just taken my first step towards my resolution.
Only a few people know what it means...
That first step towards cutting the line was not an easy step, and it wasn't easy for me to bear with but I will hold on.
Despite my actions being inappropriate and illogical, my closest friends still supported me
I thank them for that support
I hope history will be history
but history continues to haunt me non-stop in different disguises
"history repeats itself"
Maybe nothing is history unless those events become invisible and out of reach
or the perpetrators are enlightened about how much hurt and sorrow they are causing
the perpetrators usually have no idea or assumes too much
I learnt in nursing that what matters most isn't what is logical or illogical
but whether one learns to understand another's perspectives
People can view a simple event differently
I view it my way and you view it yours
The most difficult part is, whether i can understand how you perceive it
and accept it
Well, maybe such a theory is just delusional
because everyone's self-centred and selfish nowadays
that includes me
I'm trying not to expect that much now
so i shall cut off the line
and save the trouble for every self-centred person
*hopes i can smile more widely than before
it's me again at [2:26 AM]
Saturday, October 11, 2008
just to mention happy stuff...
i) i played ultimate frisbee today!! so nice~~~ i miss playing ultimate frisbee back in hwachong. used to be so much more fun playing in the central plaza. Well, the frisbee i brought over is kinda breaking into pieces but today, victory brought her frisbee down! it's a super nice one like those that mx has. Then since we had more ppl playing frisbee todae, we managed to start a game of ultimate frisbee with 3 per team =) initially ppl were getting bored because no one was scoring but once they found out that it was not that difficult to score, everyone was motivated to play! then a series of scoring came la.. but we became too tired from playing cos there were only 3 ppl running round the whole area in each team.
ii) after starting my semester 2, i got to involve myself in mroe game sports like badminton and frisbee which i really enjoyed myself playing (at least, they r the 2 games i can play well).
iii) i returned hy's uncle's coat already!
it's me again at [2:28 AM]
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
I love playing music together with other people. i just like the idea of playing in groups, or just duets. I just like singing along with other people, dancing with other people, i just like immersing myself in music together with the others. but the people around me don't like it the way i do.
I don't like soloing, that's why i've never entered a single examination or competition. I'm not playing music for the sake of some grade to prove that i'm a skilful person. I'm not out to prove that i'm an expert in music. I just like the idea of enjoying myself while playing music. I improve myself constantly not just because i'm some blardy competitive person. I just like the exposure to more music to gain more experience. In order to play more music, and more difficult, and nicer pieces, the only method was to improve myself. If i'm really such a competitive person, i'd be rushing to obtain grades, get some diploma or whatever and show the whole world that HEY! i'm the best around here, don't mess with me. If i'm really such a competitive person, i'd probably enjoy solos more than orchestras. Orchestras do not allow u to stand out at all. In fact, u can only be any other player in the group. I don't mind solos from time to time, but only in orchestra pieces. i don't really want to play a solo in front of the audience. yes, i'm not that good. but even if i am, i don't really want it either. a solo part is good, but not a solo piece.
it's me again at [8:31 AM]
Monday, August 18, 2008
Initially, i tot today's practice will be quite boring. well, they just had a performance ytd. So i went, and they started to watch a video of solos. hmm, i wasn't watching cos i was on the phone. i felt so paiseh... like i just came and i was so preoccupied with the phone that i din join the rest for quite a while. well, the phonecall was more impt than the video.
Well, we started orchestra-prac after the video at about 9+. like finally and i was soo happy. well, the songs are of kebun baru standard la. just needa sight-read and it's sufficient. i had my own fun playing music =) during the breaks, i began to practise those solos i learnt before. how much i've deproved! i was using the lousy erhu either qing or shan was using the prev time. it's really lousy la. it can't produce nice high-pitched sounds.
I forgot the guy's name, but it's probably the best erhu player in that orchestra. well, i shall name him "that guy". That guy was the only guy around. apparently, the other hongkongers din come. so it was just the 2 of us supporting the whole group. he's quite good and nice actually. he's nice to talk to, unlike first impression. well, he may be kinda ego sometimes too but when our bowing was in contradicting directions, we were like laughing at each other. he helped me quite a bit during the songs. if only he was exposed to more difficult music, he'll become a really good player n one who can appreciate good music. he's gonna bring his HuHanRou erhu for me nex week =DD weee!! good erhu!!
Actually, after i went off during dinner to catch the 6.35pm 350 bus, i waited in vain for quite some time, only to miss the 250 bus. Then i realised that they changed the entire stupid bus schedule and the 6.35pm bus was taken away. i was like wth wth wth. so i rushed off to take the tram to get to jaey's place to try her choc cake. haha...i reached rather late but well, just in time to savour the cake. it was nice! expectedly. i hope i dun get food poisoning =.= but it's really nice. i wouldn't mind the once-in-a-blue-moon cheesecake =)
Oh ya...for some reason, i keep meeting a lot of people i know todae. during the one hr break, i met Dominic whom i haven't talked to in ages but i managed to exchange a few words with him. Then i met charles whom i haven't talked to ever since the dinner but well, i was rushing off to the bus terminal when i met him. hmm... who else... i can't recall. i just remember talking to many people todae, even though the conversations were rather short.
I was thinking about myself for some time. am i taking things for granted? well, recently, i tend to adopt a external locus of control, trying to blame people for many things. but i failed to reflect upon my own mistakes. i sae things as though i noe a lot, but i dun really understand the whole situation. i may perceive things in one way, but the other party may be thinking in the opposite direction. by doing so, i may have failed to notice cues that someone is in need of help. I think i'm being too self-centred these days, thinking that the world revolves around me. well, it's not usually so. i think it's time i become more humble and stop being mean to other people. while i complained about being hurt, i think i'm also hurting some others in the process.
it's me again at [7:35 AM]
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Just came back from the dinner. I really did enjoy myself. i think it's one of the best dinner i've ever had. It made dinners like the faculty and glenn dinner pale in comparison. It was held at this place called Leonda at Yarra in Hawthorn. it's a very nice but posh place. took us about 0.5hrs to get there by chartered bus. every single girl was wearing skirts except us. hahaha!
People whom i knew include py, faezah, sam, chinatsu and yuki. there were fellow glennies like michelle from my floor. I know that 2 more were from my floor too. forgot their names. lol. There weren't many glennies around though. We were assigned to specific seats and tables. py got to sit with the warden and anthony and the other glennies. haha. i was away from her. i sat with yuki and a few other internationals. my table was famously known as the internationals table according to Dai Harris. Yuki, me, Nhu (frm graduate house), charles (menzies), Galle (menzies. dun think her name's spelling was rite) and another chisholm guy (which i dislike) were sitting together with the director of LTI. haha. Yuki, charles, galle and i talked quite a bit. galle's from mauritius, like sharon. Her sister is staying in sg! in sengkang too!! behind my house too!!!! haha!! charles was very nice to talk to. i actually saw him on quite a few occasions but i guess today's the day where i really got to know him. yuki!! miss miss miss nice nice yuki =) i wanna go osaka and stay at yuki's place!
highlight of the post: FOOD of course =) it was a 3 course meal. it started with an entree. some salad thing with meat. it had a tasty sauce. i think it was sweet chilli sauce, mixed with veg, some beehoon and yea, meat. main course was chicken. according to py's style of description = it's tender, juice and moist. when u bite it, the juice just squirts out and the sauce blends in very well with the chicken. HAHA! ok i don't sound like her. faezah and i were betting that she would describe it that way. unfortunately, her piece of chicken wasn't that desirable =P there was salmon also and it looked really good. there was potatoes as side dish. the potato didn't look tantalizing at all but it tasted so so so good. the salad was really awesome too. dessert was the highlight of the whole thing! it was this triple chocolate with a thin layer of choc cake at the bottom. it was so so so wonderful. i just savoured every single mouthful. so sinful! but i love it so much. chinatsu and i were chanting..."mousse mousse mousse" when we saw the cake coming out =)
The whole involves... entertainment = music played by students from the different colleges. it was quite nice. i really liked the music. then everyone started dancing at the end of the dinner. it was very funnie! seeing dai harris and linda kirkman dance. linda kirkman is so so nice and cute. haha! there were many other people dancing too. I actually saw bill mcguinness there! i think he was representing health sciences. This is the first time i enjoyed dancing with the rest of the people. it was not the party party kind. it's not like...drinking and dancing. it was just like grooving to the music: retro and other good songs. but the dance ended with the wild strawberries song which i hated. oh well, py wun dance of course. budden, the chisholm people joined in. sam really liked dancing hurr...
ok la. it was quite nice. we saw the funny side of many ppl there. py probably enjoyed chatting with anthony and bret =p well, made a few friends too i guess, like charles and galle. but i forgot to get their contacts. oh, i got to know some other glennies too. dunno whether we'll talk when we meet again but i hope we will.
it's me again at [6:51 AM]
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Tonite's the night of the gala dinner. I wonder what i haven't updated about. Hmm, was just wondering, what kind of good food they'll provide us. Glenn's formal dining isn't that nice. It just looks better, not like some random buffet we have everyday. the only good thing about glenn formal dining is the dessert =) the dessert is awfully good for the 2 formal dinings we had. we had fruit tarts and muffin with caramel. well, not all people like it. i do =)
Anyway, yesterday i was fairly irritated with some comments i received. well, people tend to view our group of glennies as muggers, studious, no fun. Well, i admit the muggers part. but i disagreed that our group lacked fun. We have our own share of fun, in a different way. The other internationals partying and chatting as part of their fun and activities. I'm aware that they do go out together sometimes of trips but it involves partying. Partying may be the mainstream culture over here, but it doesn't mean that it's the only source of "fun" and the only other meaning to "fun". i may not be sporty, but that doesn't mean that the rest are very sporty either? I think most of the time they just stay in the room and watch shows or play comp games? is that defined as having "life"? and us, the constant muggers = no "life"?
Our fun involves cooking together, playing around together in the davidson room, playing music together, chatting, going out together sometimes and playing our own kind of games. we don't party (except for me) because we don't accept that as "fun".
I'm also quite irritated at the fact they classify us as "those singaporeans". It's an individual thing. we, happen to be mostly singaporeans, just tend to do things similarly. It's a pity that the person failed to view us individually. At least, i don't classify his countrymen as all party kids who don't bother about studying and care only about drinking even though most of them do (shan't mention the country). at least, i noticed an exception somewhere in the very same college.
Olympics update. Stephanie rice won 2 gold medals! way to go, pretty girl! and eamon sullivan is on the road to winning his gold medal!! sullivan better win something. and i hope the two of them get together again after olympics =D haha...wonder i'm watching the olympics for. looking forward to synchronized swimming! missed out diving but oh well. good job tao li! for getting into the finals =) I've been reading aussie news everyday for olympics update. well, the news is all about aussies... so i noe more about the participants in aussie than elsewhere except for michael phleps. haha... that amazing water guy.
oh ya, yesterday there was this "slums" thing going on after dinner. it's this binge drinking + drinking games kinda thing between guys and girl organised by the seniors for the juniors. it was insane. people were drunk by 9+ when sharon and i were watching olympics. could see some RAs busy carrying drunk ppl back. What's worse was, we witnessed 2 girls spraining the ankles or injuring their legs. i think it was horrible because we could see that the girls were in extreme pain. hmmm.. wonder why they still have it. could see that many ppl were having hangovers and behaving weirdly even in the morning during brekkie. some ppl din go for lects. apparently, edgar witnessed a making-out incident. lol! and right before slums started, the toilets outside my area were flooded. wth. i have to walk a long way to get to the next toilet. so shitty. and someone obviously forgot to flush the toilet after shitting in the morning. zzz.
it's me again at [11:46 PM]
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"I desire the warmth of your hand and a time for the two of us more than vague words or simple promises..."